It’s time to get yourself out of that rut!
During my meditation this morning, Frog came to me to teach me a lesson on getting myself up out of a rut and moving forward with gusto for what I really want. The Full Blue Moon in Leo yesterday (1.31.18) came with a strong energy to make big changes to create new conditions in my life. I had listened to a podcast a couple days ago where Astrologer, Jessica Lanyadoo, said that this moon’s energy was begging us to ask the question “What am I willing to do for what I really want?” So I had been contemplating that question for a couple days.
I need to give you a littlle background on my situation here so you can see what this Frog Spirit Animal message meant to me. If you don’t care to read that, skip to the bottom for the message.
Why Frog gave me this message:
For the past twelve years I’ve been a single mom. The first eight years I managed to have a social life and be a good mom. But the next four years I put myself in a hole and hid. I cut myself off from the world and just focused on the kids. Looking back, it was depression mixed with an intense spiritual learning quest. But deep down, I know I used staying home with the kids as a crutch so I didn’t have to put myself out there. Four years of sitting around in my yoga pants studying the Law of Attraction, Astrology, moon cycles, herb medicine and a whole slew of things I discovered on my journey. That was all fine and dandy until I looked up one day and realized that other than kids sporting events, I hadn’t allowed myself to socialize and certainly not date anyone…in years!
Love is in the air
About six months ago, I got the strong urge to change that. Even though I was overweight, not feeling good about myself, had “nothing to wear” and I was scared of rejection, I pushed myself to do it anyways. I bought a new shirt, threw on the only pair of jeans that fit me, bought some new earrings and drove myself to the local bar that was the last place I’d hung out. Without going into all of the details here, because I want to get back to my frog spirit animal guide’s message, I met a guy who peaked my interest that very first night. He and I shared this look, like our souls said to each other “finally, there you are!”. We were definitely soulmates on some level. It was so refreshing and helpful for me. That gave me the kick in the pants I’d needed to put myself back out there. It gave me the drive to exercise and I released thirty pounds in four months. I was having so much fun again! All was good.
The plot twist
But about six weeks later that so-called soulmate broke my heart. He just up and disappeared on me. Apparently the kids these days call it “ghosting”. He just stopped responding to my texts and vanished two days before Christmas. My heart was broken into a million pieces. Not just the timing of it, but the not knowing what happened or why he disappeared on me were the worst. Over the past month since that happened, I’ve been able to see the lessons in it and do so much healing and growth. I realize that sometimes soulmates come into your life just to crack you open and leave you raw. So painful in the moment, but such a beautiful gift in retrospection after the healing and growth take place.
Frog knew he needed to step in
Anyhow, for the past six weeks I had continued going into that same local place with the same people over and over. It had become my comfortable safe zone. I wasn’t feeling fulfilled or excited about it. There were bad feelings when I’d go there because of the memory of that guy. The atmosphere and vibe had grown very stale and stagnant to me. So this morning during my meditation I was visited by my Frog spirit animal guide. Frog did a wonderful job of showing me what I need to do next. I feel very compelled to create a whole new chapter in my life. It’s time for a fresh start, new friends, new hangouts, all of it. Here’s the story of how this frog spirit animal medicine came to me in a vision.
FROG SPIRIT ANIMAL VISION:
Frog first gave me the vision of himself jumping up out of dark murky water onto a lily pad. Then he went back in the water and jumped up on the same lily pad again. Almost like a video rewind motion I seen him go up and down off that same lily pad over and over. I intuitively know that jumping up on that lily pad repeatedly was me initially getting myself up out of the hole. I knew it was related to me going through the act of getting myself dressed up and trying to look and feel better while pushing myself to confidently get back out there. My frog spirit animal guide said the act of me doing that over and over had strengthened my legs. He applauded me for getting myself up out of the rut, but said it’s time for the game to change now.
Time to change the game
Perched proudly on that same lily pad, Frog turned to look at me and grinned. I then realized there were all kinds of lily pads on the pond, as far as my eyes could see, and I’d only been jumping onto that one. My frog spirit animal guide then took off frantically jumping around from pad to pad all over the place laughing and having fun. He said that my time spent on that same lily pad was over and it’s time to get busy living my life in new and better ways. What once was a new adventure had become my new rut. Time to venture out, open and ready to meet lots of new people. Who knows, maybe a new circle of friends or even a new love interest would be on the next lily pad? Frog said it’s time for me to get hopping along!
Get hopping girl!
In that moment, I vowed to stop going to the place. I bought a new notebook and am making a game out of tracking how many new places I can go and new people I can meet. The game is to visit new restaurants and bars all around town, go to yoga and meditation classes at new places, show up at the gym or take workout classes around town, go to events, concerts, anything I feel guided to hop around to. Each day I’ll record which new lily pads I explored in my journal. My goal is to be my authentic self and be energetically open to meeting all kinds of new people every day.
APPLYING FROG SPIRIT ANIMAL MEDICINE TO YOUR LIFE:
Is there a rut you’ve been stuck in lately?
What one action could you begin practicing right now? What’s one lily pad you could jump on?
How many lily pads (choices) are you currently using? Are you staying stuck on one safe choice or putting yourself out there?
Are there some new lily pads (opportunities) you’d like to explore?